Thursday, January 7, 2010

Most beautiful words

yesterday night i chat with her after 2 days gap.She think that i left the orkut.yesterday we talked for a while.i am accessing net through my sisters mobile.Its going to finish today or tomorrow.today morning she was online.we started chatting.Her mood is not good,mine also.earlymorning a person came
to home he bring a marriage proposal for me.I just escaped from that.I told her about that.She told me you will get good girl.it is the right time.....etc.i think that made her mood off.Today also she talked about her friend.i said some thing.i got angry.i want to go out side so i told her i will be back.

After 3 years i am driving the car here.it is total different experience.Driving side is different from gulf also single track.yes i had an accident.minor.left head light broken and left door got jam.

I came back and check the scrap.she left the her phone number and told me call her when i am online.i will never call an unknown girl i am not that type.She came online in evening.she told me you are good guy.i ask her why.she told me you are a very good guy.again i ask her why.the answer was quite shocking.she told me because "I love you".I told her you send me a wrong messageshe ask me what was that message.i send this message.she told me it is for you.

she asked me did i feel same to her.If it is wrong please don't break friendship with her.she is not a bad girl.I can feel..she was crying.how can i ignore her love.In my life first time one girl started to love me.i am confused.i send a letter yes i love you.I also want to tell you.but i dont want to break your friendship.She
told me thank you.i told her all about me.She told me everything is ok.

My internet is disconnected...for reconnecting it will take 2 days.I was in a different world.Some sort of pleasure.i can't write what i am feeling.
something special.Yes i am in love....

Jan 25,09


Today i got an email.It is in bold letters.yes its from her.She saying i spoiled her life.i made her life in hell.her husband never accept her.She asking me i am happy now ? She ask me to die.I don't know why.And who told her bold letters is used for express anger.i don't know.What is the reason for this mail.i don't know.Now a days i have good time.My asthama is attacking it is striking back after 3 years.

With out my permission you started to love me
With out my permission you started to hate me

I spoiled her life.ha ha ha.......what she done with me ?she ask me to die.I already dead.Happiness....she left me here in search of her happiness....
Now a days people look at me with sympathy.My parents and friends never leave me alone.Not allowing to drive.Each and every minutes they calling me.i can see the fear in their eyes.They think that i will do some thing wrong.Dear i cant ask you to die.I cant ask anybody to die.If they do like that how i can live with that guilty conscience.i like Paulo Cohelo's this words "Consequently, anyone planning to love should be aware that they are exposing their body and soul to various types of wounds, and that they shall not be able to blame their partner at any moment, since the risk is the same for both."
She told me she love her husband.What a joke ?.Few days before i was her everything.She kissed me,huged me.Ha ha ha.Now she want to be Sathi, savathri.Did Sathi or Savithri had love before ? Did they cheated some one ?.No they just love their husband only.If she dont want to go against their parents why she came to my life?how many times i told her.I am the luckiest person because normally when people die every one feel bad even their enemies but in my case there are few people will be happy.i will make them happy.
My life,my career,my job.................ha ha ha everything .......I am a loser , a mad lover......ha ha ha.....

Dec 09

(This is the letter.This letter took his life.Keep reading..... )

spoild my life..happy nw?? made my life into a hell.. kya mila tujhe i thought u r my frnd...bt i ws wrong..... u r evn worse dan an enemy.. i regret y i did frndship wid u. jst get lost 4rm dis wrld.
i love my husband n wil love him 4ever..whether he accept me or nt.. i knw he wont.accept me nw... congratulations...u r successful in ur mission.die happily nw....my life's over.well done.
bt remember 1 thing...u might b happy.....bt i wont let u b.....

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